Stuff.

Gene is getting ready for his show. He's been mounting pictures, matting and framing them.

Watching has been a good learning experience, because that's probably the exact thing that i'll be doing with my pictures.

Winter is no good at all. I need pictures to work on but I don't want them all snowy and gloomy.

When my grandpa died a few years ago, I took my camera to his funeral. I was trying to get a different affect in the pictures. But I accidentally deleted the folder. I was so mad for doing that. Later today, I found out that my dad had a copy of them. Luckily he was able to put them back on my camera, so come Monday, I will have something to do. :)
I thought that it would be disrepectful to take a camera. I felt awkward. But, apparently, I got "one of the most evocative" pictures that my dad has ever seen.

That's my dad being handed the flag.

Baaaah!!

It's so cold. I hate it.

I need to go to Lai Lai's and get the OK to put my gallery there. Then I need to check out the wall space so I can figure out what size i'm going to make my pictures. Then I need to figure out who I am going to ask to include a few pictures.
I need four other photographers...
Rachel Kemper is one of them for sure.
She better do it...or else.

I really want the fine arts award at the end of the year. I think I deserve it...more than anyone else at that school. This is my last chance. If I don't get it...there will be some pulverizing going on.
:) seriously.

I need $250. It is going to suck trying to raise that. Oh well.

Nothing much...

I went to school this morning and talked to Melissa and Fred.
Instead of making a contract and getting an english credit for winterim, Melissa decided that it would be easier just to do credit recovery for an older class of hers that I took and failed. Hooray!

I made a couple more copies of my pictures to cds. Some of them are double...but I didn't want to work on the same pictures twice so I brought in the one already finished.

I am so tired. I threw a tantrum (to myself) this morning because I couldn't find my insurance card in order to get a parking pass. I want my own car. It's really pissing me off. I don't mind driving my mom's, but I can't do anything because I can't put gas in it. Just shoot me.

I saw Ify. She gave me a valentines day card. :) The tattoo was missing, though. :(

I wish I could go out of the state/country for walkabout. :( I'd like to leave this boring city in the dust for a month or two. I'm lonely now. Kemper!!! COME HOME!!! HARMONNNNNNY!!!


Gene is having a gallery. You should all go!

March 8th - April 26th, 2008
@
The Jung Haus
59 west Third Ave.
Columbus, Oh 43201

Gallery hours: Tues. - Sat. 11:00-2:00
Gallery Hop reception: Saturday, April 5, 6:30-9:00 PM

Weeeeeeeeeeeee!

I drove myself today...FINALLY!

I'm going through my pictures and copying the good ones into my "gallery" folder. It shouldn't be too hard narrowing them down because my newer pics are so much better than my older ones. :)
We came up with a list of important things to do to get ready. I need to decide a theme for the show...

Other than doing that, I shouldn't have much else to do and will probably leave a little early..............
...because I can. YAY!

I got my grades yesterday. Passed everything... Only got an ME for experiential, which...is a bit disappointing. I did a lot, and improved a lot and that's obvious. I guess I had been getting good reviews from my mentor and Ryan (turd) only came to my site once and hardly saw what I was doing... Not to sound conceited but I thought I deserved an EE. :( I'm a little sad now. But I did pass seminar...which was surprising. :)

Oh, and, I saw my first eclipse last night. I think it was lunar. wooooooooooooo!

AIC

February 20
(I wrote this blog a day ahead.)

I was looking into different art colleges and The Art Institute of Colorado caught my eye. The only problem is money...well...my confidence is a big problem, too. I don't think I stand a chance getting in to any college at all. I'm not smart.

Anyways...I filled in the personal information section and waited. Weeks later i got a phone call from George Roupas. He asked me what I was interested in and what my parents thought of me being away from home. He went on to set up a phone interview with my parents for the next day.
I didn't want to talk and neither did my mom so we took the phone off the hook...
He called back and left a message to reschedule.
I didn't call him back. This was last month. He's called back at least seven times. I don't want to talk to him. I don't understand why doesn't he get the clue? My dad even told him (lied) that I was looking into CCAD. Do you know what happened? He called back two days later. WTF?!

I just signed up expecting to get some stuff in the mail. That's all. And now if I do send an application to AIC...they'll reject it because I blew off some phone calls. >:( curses!

this picture has absolutely nothing to do with this post...but I don't care.

ha!

Jen Bosveld frightens me. I know that since i'm not working with her that her opinions don't really mean as much....but when she hovers over my shoulder asking to look at pictures...i get nervous.

Eeeep!

February 19

I opened most of my old folders and worked on some older photos. They are so bad... Really.
I have improved by 80%...or more.

It's really bizarre how art looks to different people. There are a lot of pictures of mine that I really don't care so much about but Gene will really like. I wish I could dig in people's brains to try and understand their points of views and their "eye".

I just got done with a pile of "self-portraits". I'm always afraid that they all look the same. They are usually close up or of my eyes...but I like how mysterious they look...but I'm always worried what people think...

I hate that I always worry. I know that if I want this to be my life, I have to get a thicker skin and accept the fact that not everyone is going to like my stuff...which doesn't bother me so much. I don't care about people not liking it but there's something making me feel insecure and I can't pinpoint it. Crap. I wish this made sense...

I have to talk to Gene about the gallery. It's really nerve-racking and kind of scary.

Also, I was thing of asking Jen if she might consider publishing a "chapbook" of my pictures...even though she does poetry chapbooks... All I have to do is muster up the courage to do so... If she says no then she says no...but i'll never know until I ask.


Gene likes this one-------------------------------->>
...but I don't care much about it.

I gave Gene a burned cd of Black Rebel Motorcycle Club. He really liked it, which made me happy.












Did anyone catch Rock of Love 2 sunday night? If so, fill me in.
J/K.

Tee hee...I have a moostachio!!!

6228

I brought in the first half of my life as a photographer in on cd's. They are uploaded with the second half on the computer here. It's insane.

6228 pictures...with more to come. By the time this is all over...I should have around 7000 pictures to my name. Quite a portfolio. Of course, not all of them are good. But still, i've come a long way. I can definitely see a difference and that makes me happy. I feel like a photographer and not just someone taking pictures.

Yeah, I could've had more, i'm sure, but it's not like I had/have the opportunity to go anywhere I want. Sometimes I even lost my spark for it... I'm glad to have it back in my life, though. It's really cool to find out that I'm actually good at something. It's nice to feel like I have a purpose. It's nice when people are sincere when they compliment me.


Anyways....uploading was a pain in the....behind...
It took me from 9:20am to almost noon.


Pacer left a present for Gene...and not the good kind. He's been doing that a lot lately. I heard him meow today for the first time, Pacer, not Gene.

here are some older and newer pictures...compare if you'd like.

Early 2005

Early 2006


Late 2007

Early 2008


Early 2008

So melt already...

I haven't gone to site for two days. It's freezing and the roads are terrible. AH! If it weren't so crappy outside, i'd go take pictures...

I miss my friends. Come home!!!

:(

First Official Reflection

Driving didn't work out as I had hoped. My dad screwed up directions, I went way far out of my way yesterday trying to learn the easy way. I'll probably drive myself on weds. or thurs. YAY!

Pacer (cat) was happy to see me. I guess Gene was, too... :)
Pacer had kitty litter stuck to the bottom of his back feet, so he was limping. It was sad and funny at the same time watching him stumble into things.

I didn't really have a lot to do. I still had winterim pictures on my camera and already worked on them at school so I have to make a disc of those and put them on the computer here.

I need to start going through my pictures and picking out my absolute favorites to possibly put in my gallery.

Jen (Bosveld) asked me if i'd be ok with her using one of my pictures to write a poem on. That's pretty cool.

Um....we went to bob evans.

I hate bob evans.

blah blah...

I'm starting my walkabout on monday. Tomorrow, my mom and I are going to spend the day driving back and forth to Broad street so I can learn how to get there and back on my own so I don't have to follow her. It's going to suck. I have to take backways to get there because I have absolutely no freeway experience.
It finally sunk in that I don't have to set foot in the Graham School until....May? I suppose I will visit my two favorite teachers (Melissa and Fred). I love them and it's sad to think about leaving. I can only imagine the blubbering/emotional wreck that i'll be on graduation day. :)
monday monday monday.