Wooooo!

I'm so happy to finally be done with school. I'll miss my friends though. hugs!!!

Last day.

Yesterday was the last day of Walkabout. I can't believe there are only two days of school left. Wow. We went to a waterfall and took some pictures. I saw a frog and a tiny snake. Gene was afraid of the snake. : )

I hope I don't start to feel empty, like when Rachel got back from Georgia. She loved it there. She talked about it a lot. I wish I could feel that way about something instead of feeling bored all the time.

I said my goodbyes to Pacer. I'm going to miss that little fella. I can imagine him sitting by the door, staring, and waiting. Poor lonely kitty. I'll miss Gene. He's cool. This internship wasn't like the others at all. It was personal. I feel like I had a friend instead of a supervisor. : (

I practiced symposium again. I feel like I did a lot better. If I could just get up there, and get into talking, I could lose the jitters quicker. Or I could imagine people in their underwear...or maybe not.

It's almost over. And you thought I couldn't do it.

Damn you, Icicle Creek!!

Sorry I haven't posted anything for a while. Things are slow now that the show's done. Can you believe there are only 4 days of walkabout left? I can't. Phew. I haven't really been doing much other than playing Nancy Drew games. I'm almost done with the one i'm on now. It took me forever. Anyways...after days of telling myself to make notecards, I finally did. They may not be too helpful...but after I present to Ryan one final time before June 2nd, maybe he can help me add a little more to them. I really hope I don't crash and burn. I really don't like crashing and burning.

While I practiced the first time, I looked to the back of the room and saw a few boys laughing. I get really insecure when people start to talk and laugh while I present. Luckily I didn't say "shut the fuck up" like I normally would. But seriously, don't be rude. I wouldn't do that shit to you so don't do it to me, assholes. I'm sorry this is so laced with curse words, but it ticks me off. Jerks.

There are two weeks until graduation. Where did the time go? It went by fast. It seems like whenever you need to get things done on a schedule, time goes by really fast and makes you feel tons of pressure to get it done, but when you don't do anything, time just goes by slow and makes you feel bored. Does that make sense to anyone else but me?

I've also figured out a senior prank. But it might upset the teachers so I'm have second thoughts. I need to talk to Rachel about it. It's not mean or anything...

Like I always say: Don't make a mess unless you're prepared to clean it up.

I don't really say that. How lame do you think I am?

Anyways...I'm really afraid that once I'm done working with Gene that I'll lose my interset in photography. I hope that doesn't happen.

Be Prepared

I practiced my symposium yesterday. It was a very rough draft of what's to come. It went alright, I guess. It was full of uncertainty and awkward pauses. I hate awkward pauses. I don't really understand...I'm ok around a big group of people when my friends are around...but as soon as I stand up in front of them, I lose control and confidence. I felt like everything slipped away. Oh well.

It will be a much better presentation once I have everything I want to talk about written down on 800 notecards. I think that's one of the main reasons I was so nervous. I didn't really know what to say. That and I absolutely HATE presenting. But it's not like I completely blew it off as not important, I just have trouble with this type of thing if it's not planned correctly or time wise. If I could just sit down and write stuff down instead of getting distracted by stupid blogs...then I can do a good job. And I also have to make a cd slideshow of my progression and/or my gallery.

Why can't I be a professional dancer? It looks like a lot of fun/work. I wish I could be as motivated and passionate about anything as they are about dancing.

Absence

I went to the Pudding House this morning. I got up super early to take a shower and left. When I got there, I didn't know where Gene was. I saw Jen and she asked if I ha checked my email. So I assumed that meant that Gene emailed me at some ungodly hour of the night telling me that he was sick... and I was right. So I decided to stay for a tiny while so it wouldn't have been pointless to drive up here or to have gotten up early for nothing...plus, I don't want to go home until my brother is gone. I really wish I would've read my email so I could be sleeping in right now. >:(
I'm still sniffling a bit, but not much. Oh god. I have to start my symposium. Shit shit shit. I have to present in seminar. Ok...is seminar on the 15th or the 20th? I've heard both dates...please... tell me.
Rachel is going to be putting a gallery together. Hooray! Hurrah! I can't wait to see it. Or maybe I just won't go. HA!!!! Just kidding.

Ehhhhhhh!

I hate this. I've been sneezing and blowing my nose since Friday. I've gone through two boxes of tissues with more to go. I feel disgusting. Why? It's Spring...and pretty outside...and I'm inside...sneezing.

I'm glad my show is done. And I'm glad all my schoolwork is done. I'm glad I'm graduating. Really. I wonder where I should get a job. Hmmmm. McDonalds? Burger King...? NO! I refuse to work at a fast food place. Yuck.

I miss my friends. I mean...I see Rachel a little bit...but I miss everyone else. Like Harmony and Ify and Annie B. and a few others... We should blog forever. Seriously. I don't want to lose you people. I love you guys.<---cheesetastic.

This blog was fairly random. But I haven't left the house since Saturday and I have nothing to talk about. I think since my show is up, I won't have anything else to blog about. You'll probably get a bunch more of these silly rambling blogs. Sorry for that.

7:12 am

Oh boy. This morning was rough. I was having last minute jitters before leaving to get the show together. It was terrible. I woke up around 2:40 am and had an upset stomach...so I went to the bathroom and felt semi-better. It sucks that much more when you already have to wake up early...especially on a Saturday.

I moved the remote to my stereo so I actually had to get out of bed to turn my timer off so I wouldn't go back to sleep. After I got up, I still felt nauseous, so I attempted to take some pepto bismol. I gagged but tried to swallow it anyways...big mistake. I threw it back up. Does anyone else hate that crap as much as I do? Yuck. Also, I have been sneezing and blowing my nose all day. It was gross.

I took a shower, then Rachel came over. We played an awesome compilation cd of the best Disney princess songs. It was fun! We went to get frames from Meijer. Gene framed the remaining 3 prints and Fred arrived. Then we went over to Lai Lai at 11:15-ish. To make a long story short, we had the pictures hung by 1:45 or so. Then I left to change my clothes. When we got back, my parents were there.

Ryan showed up with his wife and kids at 12:00 or so and kept wondering over to check things out. Man, what a weirdo. My grandma showed up with my aunt. My brother and his girlfriend were there. Melissa came with someone else from school. Ken from Mimosa Floral Design was there. Everyone was impressed. My dad totally started to cry. Ned and Bryce came in later.

Thanks to everyone that came today. As for the rest of you...you suck. J/K?

It's still on....

Especially since Gene has all of the sudden come down with something. So he's sick and I can't go today. And today was a crucial day. I mean, I have to go tomorrow at 10am to frame pictures and then over to Lai Lai to hang them at 11am. I don't know...I just feel and have felt these whole couple of weeks that nothing has been getting done.

Oh, yeah...COME TO MY DEBUT SHOW TOMORROW! (May 3rd, 2-5pm)

Lai Lai
6823 East Broad Street
Columbus, OH 43213

Please try to make it. I would really appreciate your support.

It's definitely on...

The pressure is on. I am so sick of people fucking telling me what I should have done and when it should have been done. "You should had the postcards done a week ago". Like I don't already know? Get serious and back off! If I have one more person say something...I will explode. And I'm trying to stay calm...but it's not happening. So leave me alone.
Alright...I'm done.

So I went to school and gave postcards to teachers...half of which seemed totally uninterested. Some of them even lied about being out of town the day of the opening (Amy). :)
Anywho...I felt pretty awkward being at school. I hate the students there. They're very dimwitted. Uh...what? Did I say that? My bad?

Speaking of dimwitted:

Don't Ask.

Also, which one do you like better?

Or?

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Untitled (I don't feel too creative right now)

We finished the postcards today. They needed a teeny tiny bit of trimming but they look amazing. We're making address labels to send to my relatives and mailing them first class today. Hopefully they get there in time. But even if they don't, my mom has talked about it to some if them and confirmed that they will be there. Yay!

As for anyone (as in teachers/fellow classmates) reading this blog right now:

Come to my debut show!

The opening is:

Saturday, May 3rd, 2-5pm

@

Lai Lai
6823 East Broad Street
Columbus, OH 43213

It runs through June 7th. Be there or be rectangle?

Today, I am going to school to pass out some postcards to some staff members. I really don't know what to do. Should I give them to everyone? Or just the ones I actually know or have had a class with? I don't want to be rude by not inviting the new teachers, but I have never talked to them. And this is kind of personal for me. Oh well. I hope I see some friends so I can give them postcards, too.

Postcards (sorry, no pain this time)

Today we went to school to do the senior video but nothing was ready. Waste of my life.
I got the postcards from Fred and neither Gene or myself were too thrilled with the way they turned out so we re-printed them. They look better. (No offense Fred) (Jerk).
Gene is generously doing the printing at no cost to me. I really appreciate that. I, of course, feel that it's my responsibility. Even though he insists, I still feel guilty.
I have some money for frames and mattes, though.

I went to see my Eva read some poems last night. I'm sorry, but...it was kind of boring. Eva wasn't boring, though. I like her poems and all, but I'm just not a big poetry person. I won a raffle. I got a book of poetry by Thomas Lux (whoever the hell that is) which I am proud to say I'll never read.
After Eva was finished, we listened to open mic poetry. Seriously? Talk about snoozers. Boring, terrible. I mean, really. A mentally challenged squirrel could write better poetry than some of the stank I heard in those god awful 20 minutes.

I wanted to snap my fingers after it was all over.

Beatniks.

:P

Fudged

I took my postcard (on cd) to school to print them...and of course...everything went wrong. The picture looked horrible after printing a sample card. So, I guess Fred is going to pring the font sides and Gene is going to print the picture sides. We called Lai Lai to confirm dates. They are set. Woo!

Oh, and I guess there are protests at school.

On Tuesday, we are going to school to start the senior videos. Oh boy.

Eva is having a poetry reading on Monday, the 28th, at Larry's Bar. So anyone that likes Eva should go!

Postcards and Pain.

Today, Gene and I worked on the postcard for the show. We picked the picture, figured out dates, times and an actual title for my collection of photographs. I am so happy that we finally started it. We have two whole weeks so we have to get a move on. He said that he put his show together only two days before the pictures were supposed to be hanged. Why do people wait until the very last minute to do things that they know are important? Seriously?

I made a list of all the people that I'm going to mail a postcard to, and those will be the only ones with a return address on them. I don't want to take them to school and risk a bunch of douchey underclassmen knowing where I live. I don't trust them. And if you couldn't tell before, I'm paranoid. (To be perfectly honest, I don't want anybody from school to be there except for my friends. And I can't decide if I should give an invitation to all the teachers, or just the ones I like/know).

I have also decided not to bother with the walkabout fund. I have no time and absolutely no patience at this point and I just want to get this stuff done. It's not going to cost (me) as much as I was told. So, I might be able to save $50. Woo...big deal.

Alrighty... So, we've named all but one of the pictures. What should I call the picture of Rachel and the paint samples? Suggestion? Please?

So this morning, I was eating a Reese cup, and I started coughing. I tried so hard not to choke, that a big chunk of peanut butter and chocolatey goodness flew into my nasal passage. I was so pissed off...and in pain. So the entire drive up to site this morning was me, angry and hurting, heavy swallows, trying to get this damn chocolate out of my damn head. Finally, I could feel it in the back of my throat coming out. Hooray! It felt...like I was trying to hock a loogie. Tee Hee.

Oh yeah. And I totally had one of those OMG moments (but I forgot my Degree Girls deodorant). Anyways, I was trying to do something on the computer, and I hit something on the keyboard and everytime I deleted a word, a huge picture would pop up. Anyways, my nerve and my patience completely flew out the window and I started crying and dropped the F bomb in front of my mentor a couple of times, which I apparently did once but don't remember. I hate not knowing what to do. Why can't things just be easy?

Gross

I hate being a girl...

Anyways... Rachel and I left early today because we're not feeling so great. And Gene wasn't feeling too good either. Neither was Pacer (he threw up...twice).

When we got back to my house, we watched Enchanted. Not as good as I hoped it would be...I expect better from the people who made The Little Mermaid and Beauty and the Beast. The songs were lame, the princess was dumb...it just...wasn't that good. I give it a C+.

I'm losing it. Really losing it. I want this stupid gallery to come together so bad and it just doesn't feel like it's going to happen. HOW DO I GET MONEY FROM THE WALKABOUT FUND?!?! PLEASE TELL ME!!! What must I do?

Oh, I Just Can't Wait to....Grow Up?

Yesterday was really fun. Rachel, Harmony, Jordan and myself drove to Target, windows down, Lion King soundtrack blasting...singing aloud. I'm glad that i'm not the only one willing to admit how big their inner child is...although sometimes I do want to strangle it for taking over my life.
But who wants to grow up anyways?

We bought kites. It was semi-windy. But that doesn't mean that my kite flew. I always seem to have the hardest time with everything no matter how easy. Stupid kite. It eventually flew...for two seconds. I should've just gotten a regular flat kite. Jordan got her kite really high. After that, we played some really bad tennis. And Jordan got black stuff on her hand from my brother's tennis racket, which had never been used, that is 8-10 years old, while i used my mom's from 1974.

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This morning, we put on the Little Mermaid soundtrack. :)

Today, we went to measure the walls at Lai Lai. I have 53 feet of space to hang 20 or so pictures. I've chosen the picture that's going to be on the postcard. Once those ore done, i'm going to mail them out and put some at school. Of course, I could care less if anybody from school shows up other than a selected few (Melissa, Fred, maybe a few other teachers...).

:)

I can't wait to graduate.

Yipee!

Today we went to Lai Lai. We talked to the owner. He said he didn't have a problem with any of the pictures I showed him. So next week we'll (hopefully) start printing and mounting pictures.
I want to try to get Rachel to come in as many days as she can this next week for help. (PLEASE RACHEL!!!)
I'm a very picky eater. I hate ordering food. Especially if I've never tried it before. I don't like seafood, I don't like spicy food, I hate everything. So I always end up ordering a hamburger or something else familiar. But today I got sweet and sour chicken. It was good. So from now on, I'm going to be boring at Chinese restaurants and just order that. Did I mention that I'm a picky eater?

Um...here's a list of tasks:

- Measure walls in Lai Lai
- Print
- Custom cut mattes
- Mount/Frame
- Make postcards for opening
- Labels

I'd really like to have this done by the first of May. I know that's a little unrealistic...but I am going to work my...patootie...off for the rest of this month.

La la la.

Ryan visited today. I showed him the pictures that may or may not go in the gallery. I also let him read the poem that Jen is going to publish. He said it was strong.

I don't really have a lot to do right now. Gene and Fred are definitely going to Lai Lai's this week.
I'm going to my grandma's tomorrow. I'm taking my camera just in case I have an opportunity to take pictures.

Rachel has been sending my name and address off for free samples. I wonder...

Oooh.

Gene has made me the featured photographer on photo-genesis.net.

Woo hoo!

Need I say more? I think not! HA!

Fun Day!

Rachel Kemper started at The Pudding House (Photo-Genesis) today. WOOO!
She updated her gallery for the first time in, oh, a year or so. What a dummy. :)
She really smells.

We went to get donuts. Yay!

I almost hit a big rig this morning. That was real fun. Not!

Gene cleaned off Pacer's back feet. Kitty litter was clumped in them so when he walked, his back foot slid. Gene picked him up and soaked his feet in water. I think Pacer was embarrassed because he kept hiding his face, and usually when he looks angry, his eyes got wide and he looks really sad...so I stood by him and pet him to try to make him feel better. :o)

Back to Work!

On Saturday, Fred, Gene, Robyn, and I went down to Mount Sterling to pick up Rachel and took pictures of and in some abandoned houses. On the way to Rachel's, we stopped at the Cracker Barrel. What is it with all these crappy farm-like restaurants. I mean, really? Ew. It was alright, I guess. Gene bought us stuffed elephants. :)
Mount Sterling wasn't as far away as I thought it would be. That's where the houses were. It was really cold. My fingers and toes started to lose feeling...so I went to sit in the car at one point. There were a lot of vultures down there. They were really big and really ugly.

I had fun. It was good to see Rachel after 7 weeks or so. And Robyn after almost a year. Geesh.

I was afraid that I wouldn't have any good pictures. I got lucky, though. I've decided that I want Rachel's camera. It looks like it gets really good quality pictures.
I don't like going out to take pictures with big groups of people because we all get the same or similar pictures. I hate that. We did some trespassing. We're bad. But it was fun. It's not like anyone's coming back to those places anyways.

The power went off last night at my house. It was 12am-ish. It was off for a little over an hour, I think. So I got bored and took some pictures of magnets.

Ok. So I hope this month will be busy. I would like to have the gallery finished and up by May 1st at the latest. Wish me luck. :)

Butterflies...

Well, I guess I'll start off by saying Happy Spring to everyone...

I just wrote an ekphrastic poem on one of my pictures. It's make up work for a (very) old class.

I have a hard time with writing. I want things to be as good as they can possibly be. And when I feel like things aren't exactly that, then I give up. I just never think anything that I do is good enough. Even when I have 20 different people telling me that it's good, I never feel confident about it. Why the hell is that? Why can't I get over these stupid insecurities from the past? I know that if I don't let it go, it's going to control the rest of my life...and I don't want that to happen.

Anyways...I sent the poem to Gene. He let Jen Bosveld read it. Jen wants to publish it in The Pudding House Magazine Issue 53. So here I am, worried that my poem is terrible, and an important person actually wants to publish it.

So now I have butterflies in my stomach. It's just weird.

Just Great...

Gene has been sick for the past two days now. So I had to stay home (which is obviously a huge problem) :)

I want to enter a photo contest. But the only good one I saw is 21+ which is totally unfair. :(

I turned in my walkabout proposal today. I got Melissa to be my blog reader. Hooray. I didn't see Rachel Kemper ( >:( ) or Harmony. Those jerks. Oh well. They were probably going to come in later, if at all, but I don't want to be at school all day.

I guess Fred is coming over to the Pudding House tomorrow. I guess I'm going, too...even though it's the first day of spring break...

I'm bored...and tired.

Bored

This past couple of days haven't been very productive at all. I don't feel so great, either. I'm so tired. I am definitely ready for spring break. After that, we are going to get started on the gallery work. I can't wait.

Rachel Kemper is back...FINALLY!!!! Yay!

My proposal is done. I'm going to school on Thursday to turn it in an to say hi to people that I haven't seen for a while.

I probably won't be writing much, if at all, this week. Sorry for being boring.

Paint.

Does anybody know any other places that sell paint, besides Lowes, Home Depot, and Sherwin Williams? I found a place called Pittsburgh Paints. Now I need a model. Does anybody know Jordan Henry-Jones' email address?

My series is coming along good. I took a picture of Eva in front of the bulk candy. It looks ok, but not as good as the paint samples.

We went the the art museum today...(snore). We bought ears. Ear clips...or whatever. They're funny. I need money...(that rhymed) Ah!

Eva and Harmony...

Yay!

Eva visisted today. :) Gene and Jen were really happy to see her. So happy, that they pretty much ignored me.

I worked on some pictures that I took over the weekend during and after the "blizzard".
I am making a series with the paint samples. The ones I took of Harmony turned out pretty bad.

Me, Gene and Eva went to Meijer to take pictures, because they have paint samples there, but a lot of them were missing so I changed my mind. I've never been to the one on Broad Street before. It was weird...and different. Not ghetto. So I took a picture of Eva in front of candy. Later, we went to Sherwin Williams. I got some good shots there.

Cut.

Gene and I have decided to cut the idea of having four other photographers included in my show. I don't want to share the spotlight and he doesn't think it's fair to me because it's my walkabout and I'm the one doing all the work. True Dat.

Rachel Kemper: You are the only one (so far) allowed to hang pictures with me. I like you enough to stray some attention away from my pictures. :)

I might let one more person in...but I don't know. One or two people, but not four. If I had four people hanging stuff, that would be 12-16 pictures that aren't mine. I'm already going to have 20 pictures up.

Ehhhh!!! GROSS WEATHER!

Slick.

I overslept this morning. I left the house at around 10:15, and that's about the time when it started snowing. I put the car in 4WD thinking that would save the day. I was careful on the roads, so it took me twice as long to get the my site.

I was 5 minutes away from Gene's and the road split from one lane to three and I couldn't see the lines on the road anymore. I ended up getting in the turn lane on the wrong side of the road. When I tried to get back to the other lane, I slid. It was a frightening moment in my life. My first time sliding on the road in this weather.

And to make it scarier, there was a red light and a car a foot in front of me. Luckily, there wasn't anyone in the right lane or I probably would've hit them. I felt helpless. I wasn't in control and it scared me.

I got to Gene's and he told me that my mom had called and was worried about me because I wasn't there yet. I called her and told her that I was ok and she told me to leave early. Jen told me that I should have just left as soon as I got there which I didn't.

I should have just stayed home. Now, the weather is worse and it's not going to stop snowing anytime soon. I wonder if there is a snow day at school...

In Pudding House news:

We've narrowed down my pictures from 40 to 30, and down to 20. We put them in an order that fit and we named them. Now, we need to figure out the sizes. We're going to cut our own mattes to save money.

I don't know what I'm going to do for my fourth quarter walkabout. I might ask to stay at the Pudding House. I've been here since October and I really don't want to leave. I haven't put much thought into what I could do next quarter and now I really feel that it's too late.

I don't want to go back out there. The roads are terrible and it will take me an hour to get home. I'll have to tip toe around every little nick and cranny on the road and there are some crazy people out there and that makes it scarier.

Gene's show opening has been canceled. So...don't go. It sucks. DAMN YOU, EVIL SNOW!!!

Finally...

I feel like I am making some headway. :)

Fred called Gene and they talked about my gallery. It's going to be at Lai Lai's (most definitely). I am 100% sure of that. I guess the owners are excited to have artwork around because they've never really had any. It's cool to be the first.

We're going to try to get the pictures up by April 1st.

I started to narrow down my choices of pictures, and I guess the theme is going to be "abstract".
I always start to get mixed feelings about my pictures while I narrow them down. I have a hard time choosing. But...it shouldn't be too bad.

I now need to find a few more photographers to add in. I don't really know many (good) photographers...which kind of sucks. So even finding two more is going to be tough.

When everything is almost finished, I'll give you the address of the restaurant and a specific date. I'm not sure if i'm going to make postcards or not. It would be cool to.

Like I said before....

Gene is having a gallery - PLEASE CHECK IT OUT!

March 8th - April 26th, 2008 @:

The Jung Haus
59 west Third Ave.
Columbus, Oh 43201

Gallery hours: Tues. - Sat. 11:00-2:00
Gallery Hop reception: Saturday, April 5, 6:30-9:00 PM

The opening day (Sat. March, 8) is at 12:30.

BE THERE!

It's gonna be good. I promise.


Ok, so, you know how sometimes you can get really annoying songs stuck in your head? Well, I have one. And it's all to blame on a picture that I took. It's called "Allison Road" by The Gin Blossoms. I used to love that song when I was little...because God knows that every little girl whose name is in a song title thinks it's their song. I don't particularly care for it now. It actually kind of makes me want to vomit. Yep. But anyways....here's the picture I blame it on:

Guess what it's called, lolololololololololol.....

Grrrrr.

I wish that you could be good at anything you wanted to do from the getgo. I hate looking at old pictures and seeing how terrible they turned out. When the subject is blurry and the background is nice and crisp looking. It's ridiculous. See:

Subject: Flowers...NOT IN FOCUS!! This would've been beautiful!

It's like at my grandpas funeral. I wasn't a great photographer. I didn't really know what I was doing with the camera. So even though they have sentimental value to me, they are washed out and grainy. I wish I could've been good then. It's photography...I mean, really...how hard could it be?

Anyways... Gene is preparing for his upcoming show. He and Jen are going to Jung Haus to hang his pictures and he said it would take around three hours to hang his stuff. *yawn* :)

Stuff.

Gene is getting ready for his show. He's been mounting pictures, matting and framing them.

Watching has been a good learning experience, because that's probably the exact thing that i'll be doing with my pictures.

Winter is no good at all. I need pictures to work on but I don't want them all snowy and gloomy.

When my grandpa died a few years ago, I took my camera to his funeral. I was trying to get a different affect in the pictures. But I accidentally deleted the folder. I was so mad for doing that. Later today, I found out that my dad had a copy of them. Luckily he was able to put them back on my camera, so come Monday, I will have something to do. :)
I thought that it would be disrepectful to take a camera. I felt awkward. But, apparently, I got "one of the most evocative" pictures that my dad has ever seen.

That's my dad being handed the flag.

Baaaah!!

It's so cold. I hate it.

I need to go to Lai Lai's and get the OK to put my gallery there. Then I need to check out the wall space so I can figure out what size i'm going to make my pictures. Then I need to figure out who I am going to ask to include a few pictures.
I need four other photographers...
Rachel Kemper is one of them for sure.
She better do it...or else.

I really want the fine arts award at the end of the year. I think I deserve it...more than anyone else at that school. This is my last chance. If I don't get it...there will be some pulverizing going on.
:) seriously.

I need $250. It is going to suck trying to raise that. Oh well.

Nothing much...

I went to school this morning and talked to Melissa and Fred.
Instead of making a contract and getting an english credit for winterim, Melissa decided that it would be easier just to do credit recovery for an older class of hers that I took and failed. Hooray!

I made a couple more copies of my pictures to cds. Some of them are double...but I didn't want to work on the same pictures twice so I brought in the one already finished.

I am so tired. I threw a tantrum (to myself) this morning because I couldn't find my insurance card in order to get a parking pass. I want my own car. It's really pissing me off. I don't mind driving my mom's, but I can't do anything because I can't put gas in it. Just shoot me.

I saw Ify. She gave me a valentines day card. :) The tattoo was missing, though. :(

I wish I could go out of the state/country for walkabout. :( I'd like to leave this boring city in the dust for a month or two. I'm lonely now. Kemper!!! COME HOME!!! HARMONNNNNNY!!!


Gene is having a gallery. You should all go!

March 8th - April 26th, 2008
@
The Jung Haus
59 west Third Ave.
Columbus, Oh 43201

Gallery hours: Tues. - Sat. 11:00-2:00
Gallery Hop reception: Saturday, April 5, 6:30-9:00 PM

Weeeeeeeeeeeee!

I drove myself today...FINALLY!

I'm going through my pictures and copying the good ones into my "gallery" folder. It shouldn't be too hard narrowing them down because my newer pics are so much better than my older ones. :)
We came up with a list of important things to do to get ready. I need to decide a theme for the show...

Other than doing that, I shouldn't have much else to do and will probably leave a little early..............
...because I can. YAY!

I got my grades yesterday. Passed everything... Only got an ME for experiential, which...is a bit disappointing. I did a lot, and improved a lot and that's obvious. I guess I had been getting good reviews from my mentor and Ryan (turd) only came to my site once and hardly saw what I was doing... Not to sound conceited but I thought I deserved an EE. :( I'm a little sad now. But I did pass seminar...which was surprising. :)

Oh, and, I saw my first eclipse last night. I think it was lunar. wooooooooooooo!

AIC

February 20
(I wrote this blog a day ahead.)

I was looking into different art colleges and The Art Institute of Colorado caught my eye. The only problem is money...well...my confidence is a big problem, too. I don't think I stand a chance getting in to any college at all. I'm not smart.

Anyways...I filled in the personal information section and waited. Weeks later i got a phone call from George Roupas. He asked me what I was interested in and what my parents thought of me being away from home. He went on to set up a phone interview with my parents for the next day.
I didn't want to talk and neither did my mom so we took the phone off the hook...
He called back and left a message to reschedule.
I didn't call him back. This was last month. He's called back at least seven times. I don't want to talk to him. I don't understand why doesn't he get the clue? My dad even told him (lied) that I was looking into CCAD. Do you know what happened? He called back two days later. WTF?!

I just signed up expecting to get some stuff in the mail. That's all. And now if I do send an application to AIC...they'll reject it because I blew off some phone calls. >:( curses!

this picture has absolutely nothing to do with this post...but I don't care.

ha!

Jen Bosveld frightens me. I know that since i'm not working with her that her opinions don't really mean as much....but when she hovers over my shoulder asking to look at pictures...i get nervous.

Eeeep!

February 19

I opened most of my old folders and worked on some older photos. They are so bad... Really.
I have improved by 80%...or more.

It's really bizarre how art looks to different people. There are a lot of pictures of mine that I really don't care so much about but Gene will really like. I wish I could dig in people's brains to try and understand their points of views and their "eye".

I just got done with a pile of "self-portraits". I'm always afraid that they all look the same. They are usually close up or of my eyes...but I like how mysterious they look...but I'm always worried what people think...

I hate that I always worry. I know that if I want this to be my life, I have to get a thicker skin and accept the fact that not everyone is going to like my stuff...which doesn't bother me so much. I don't care about people not liking it but there's something making me feel insecure and I can't pinpoint it. Crap. I wish this made sense...

I have to talk to Gene about the gallery. It's really nerve-racking and kind of scary.

Also, I was thing of asking Jen if she might consider publishing a "chapbook" of my pictures...even though she does poetry chapbooks... All I have to do is muster up the courage to do so... If she says no then she says no...but i'll never know until I ask.


Gene likes this one-------------------------------->>
...but I don't care much about it.

I gave Gene a burned cd of Black Rebel Motorcycle Club. He really liked it, which made me happy.












Did anyone catch Rock of Love 2 sunday night? If so, fill me in.
J/K.

Tee hee...I have a moostachio!!!

6228

I brought in the first half of my life as a photographer in on cd's. They are uploaded with the second half on the computer here. It's insane.

6228 pictures...with more to come. By the time this is all over...I should have around 7000 pictures to my name. Quite a portfolio. Of course, not all of them are good. But still, i've come a long way. I can definitely see a difference and that makes me happy. I feel like a photographer and not just someone taking pictures.

Yeah, I could've had more, i'm sure, but it's not like I had/have the opportunity to go anywhere I want. Sometimes I even lost my spark for it... I'm glad to have it back in my life, though. It's really cool to find out that I'm actually good at something. It's nice to feel like I have a purpose. It's nice when people are sincere when they compliment me.


Anyways....uploading was a pain in the....behind...
It took me from 9:20am to almost noon.


Pacer left a present for Gene...and not the good kind. He's been doing that a lot lately. I heard him meow today for the first time, Pacer, not Gene.

here are some older and newer pictures...compare if you'd like.

Early 2005

Early 2006


Late 2007

Early 2008


Early 2008

So melt already...

I haven't gone to site for two days. It's freezing and the roads are terrible. AH! If it weren't so crappy outside, i'd go take pictures...

I miss my friends. Come home!!!

:(

First Official Reflection

Driving didn't work out as I had hoped. My dad screwed up directions, I went way far out of my way yesterday trying to learn the easy way. I'll probably drive myself on weds. or thurs. YAY!

Pacer (cat) was happy to see me. I guess Gene was, too... :)
Pacer had kitty litter stuck to the bottom of his back feet, so he was limping. It was sad and funny at the same time watching him stumble into things.

I didn't really have a lot to do. I still had winterim pictures on my camera and already worked on them at school so I have to make a disc of those and put them on the computer here.

I need to start going through my pictures and picking out my absolute favorites to possibly put in my gallery.

Jen (Bosveld) asked me if i'd be ok with her using one of my pictures to write a poem on. That's pretty cool.

Um....we went to bob evans.

I hate bob evans.

blah blah...

I'm starting my walkabout on monday. Tomorrow, my mom and I are going to spend the day driving back and forth to Broad street so I can learn how to get there and back on my own so I don't have to follow her. It's going to suck. I have to take backways to get there because I have absolutely no freeway experience.
It finally sunk in that I don't have to set foot in the Graham School until....May? I suppose I will visit my two favorite teachers (Melissa and Fred). I love them and it's sad to think about leaving. I can only imagine the blubbering/emotional wreck that i'll be on graduation day. :)
monday monday monday.

mid-year senior reflection

1) Which walkabout assignments have you completed so far?

I have completed my final draft of my walkabout proposal and my rough draft of my walkabout research paper. I have not presented yet.

2) If you have not completed all of the assignments, what obstacles have you faced in getting the work done?

I procrastinate. That's the biggest obstacle.

3) Which aspect(s) of walkabout are you most excited about? Why?

I am excited about continuing my previous work with Gene Bradford for walkabout because he can still teach me more. I'm excited that I am able to finally put a real photography gallery together. It gives me a chance to put myself out there and get known. I am (slowly) starting to become more independent.

4) In what ways will you be taking significant risk during walkabout?

I will be taking risks by putting together my gallery almost entirely by myself. I have the final say of which pictures go in. I will be interviewing curators and getting ideas of how to get things done for my gallery.

5) What support would you like to have during your walkabouts, from school, home, friends, a mentor, etc.?

I would just like to be left alone. I don't want questions asked about progress...I already feel like I have a huge weight on my shoulders and it sucks. I would like my friends to be happy for me and not criticize me. I want my mentor to help me along the way.

6) Please write yourself a narrative for your english credit for 1st semester seminar. Describe why you are EE, ME, AE, or JB.

I am either at an AE or a JB for first semester seminar. Maybe that will change when I turn in my proposal and research paper in. But I missed a few seminars. Just wasn't motivated enough to get out of bed. I hope I'd get an ME after I turn that stuff in and present.

7) Please write yourself a narrative for your 1st semester experiential site work and weekly seminar. Describe why you are EE, ME, AE, or JB.

For experiential, I'd hope to get an ME or EE for a grade. I think, as a photographer, I have made tremendous progress. My work is "art now", from what Gene and Jen say. I know more techniques on photoshop 3.